Tuesday, January 31, 2012

Not a good start

The start of 2012 wasn't a good one, I spent the first 3 days an emotional mess.  Not only dealing with a heap of pain, mum is on the rampage. I don't know what gets into her, I swear she must have mental issues, theses no other explanations for the way she teats people. The words that comes out of her mouth are so offensive and hurtful, they cut really deep, really really nasty. I don't understand how something that might go wrong, it gives her permission or ammunition to punch holes into your sole. I understand that it's frustrating especially when you're not feeling well and you need to solve whatever the problem. But it's no reason to use people as a punching bag and find outrages reasons to put blame onto someone else. Sometimes things happen for absolutely no reason. The cursing and whining goes on for days even if no one talks to her. She'll find something to use as a trigger, a word on a TV program she's watching, anything she can twist around so she can then use it as ammo. Its like a real talent she has, if she's in a bad mood there's nothing you can do but to keep out of her way. She has no regard for your feelings, doesn't care if some else is there. She'll go out of her way to find the tiniest thing she can use, I suppose it's like a drug, she needs her fix. 

Having said all that, basically she is a good caring person, but and I hate saying it but. It has to suit her, when she wants it. She can't do enough for you, she will go out of her way to help you. Yet later down the track she'll throw it back in your face. If she wants to do something for you and you say no, she gets offended. You have to agree or say yes or she'll keep on and on, not with just me but anyone.

Doing some research online I've discovered that she might have some aspects of narcissistic characteristic behavior. It kind of fits in, maybe its not full blown but it explains a lot, even going back as a kid, she's alway had anger issues if things didn't go her way. I truly don't believe that she knows what she's doing, I believe that it's a release thing with her, like a drug or a fix. 

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

Do It Anyway

A beautiful friend shared this with me, the one person I can say that I know who truly lives by these. It made me think, if we all could just live by a few of these, life would be such amazing place...just like my friend is!

People are often unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered;
Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies;
Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
Give the world the best you've got anyway.

You see, in the final analysis it is between you and God.  It was never between you and them anyway. By Mother Theresa

Saturday, January 7, 2012

Update coming soon....

It’s been quite a few years since I last updated my story, reason being I lost my blog password. So I’m creating a new one, so you must be patient. I've tried many times to get in and recover my password, but everything I've tried hasn't worked. Finely I think they must have suspended my blog, I just don’t understand what happened because it’s still showing up on the web. If anyone knows how to get it back, can you please let me know?  

Please read my old blog, see link below...I will add a post soon!